A Valentines Entry
This is one of my favorite song ever written, I think I was 1st year high-school when it hits the radio stations, it is indeed one of the most meaningful song for me and it really mean a lot to me, I was having this last song syndrome (LSS) with this song, I been singing the chorus part of it for 3 days now, I don’t know why, I just love too.
I was 1st year High School when I met this girl, she is one of the most beautiful girls in our campus, and she was my classmates, a lot of guys turn on to her every time they saw her, I really like her eyes and her voice, we easily became friends, we had a good days, but just after sometime, she wasn’t able to attend our class, from days it turn to weeks, from weeks it turn to months, then just before we lose hope we heard that she’s in the hospital, she is sick, by that time, I am not yet allowed to go out alone, so I wasn’t able to visit her, it was a month or two after we heard about her conditions when we learned that she already passed away, I was depress, nobody knows that, I had a feelings for her but eventually never had the chance to tell her.
Many years had passed I met another girl again, a girl that would play one of the biggest role in my life, a girl who would occupied a big space in my heart, I was a collage-freshmen in a very known I.T School when I met her, we easily became friends, classmates and seatmates, I told her I like her, she told me she likes me too, we became lovers and partners in crime since then, we had a great relationship, until she met this one handsome man, she easily fall for this guy, after almost 9-10 years, from being friends to lovers she would tell me she’s dumping me, I cried out loud, I was in my most darkest hour, “My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her, you've gotta set her free and if she returns in time, I'll know she's mine”, “But tell me, where do I start, 'Coz it's breakin' my heart, I don't wanna let her go”.
What else could we do, if someone wanna say good bye to us, there is nothing we can do but to let them go, I admit I was scared and everything, frighten and traumatized, I don’t wanna feel that kind of pain again, it’s hard, its miserable, it’s the kind of feeling that you don’t wanna feel, I was praying and hoping that she would comeback, everyday’s and every night I waited for her wishing you would return, I longed for her kisses and hugs, I am slowly melting down, burning like a candle, bleeding inside and out, I felt so lost, all the melancholies and heartaches I suffered it all, I wanted to run and hide into my most comfortable zone and that is her arm, I wanna tell her I was scared, that every time I act so brave I’m shakin’ inside but I know she wouldn’t mind, she’s no longer mine, somebody owns her heart, she could never be mine and all I can do is hope & pray 'Coz heaven knows.
And then I realized, I am falling back, all my dreams are fading, I had to do something before its too late, then I started to fix my self, I started to pick up the pieces, I build my life again, and Alhamdullillah (Praise to God) I am slowly learning to stand up again, I am slowly regaining the missing piece, I am learning to smile again, you see ladies and gentlemen, the secret of letting go is acceptance, the secret to happiness is contentment, jealousy usually comes after you compare, I had lived in despair, that I almost forgot how to smile and almost lose my faith in GOD ALLAH, but eventually GOD ALLAH has plan for me, he molded me into something I am not, he(ALLAH) brought me to life again, he(ALLAH) showed me the way, now here I am smiling at last…. Happy and contented, still single but ready to mingle… nyeheheheheh…. Happy Valentines Every-One…..
Here a song from Rick Price
Heaven Knows
She’s always on my mind,
From the time i wake up
’till I close my eyes
She’s everywhere i go
She’s all I know
Though she’s so far away
it’s just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she’s gone
I’m still holding on
so tell me where do Istart
’cause it’s breaking my heart
don’t wanna let her go
chorus:
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
and all I can do is hope and pray
’cause heaven knows
My friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
You’ve gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
I’ll know she’s mine
So tell me where do i start
’cause it’s breaking my heart
Don’t wanna let her go
chorus
Why I live in despair
’cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she’s never there
and all these time i act so brave
I’m shaking inside
why does it hurt me so…
chorus
Heaven knows
Shukran…..