Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Claustrophobia



Response to my yesterday’s Post Question number
[Twenty-Seven]
What is your greatest Fear?
- Claustrophobia, Be locked in a room with no way out, or no scape.

What is it? Is it a decease or just sort of behavioral disorder?

According to WIKIPEDIA:
Claustrophobia (from Latin claustrum "a shut in place" and Greek φόβος, phóbos, "fear") is the fear of having no escape and being closed in (opposite: claustrophilia). It is typically classified as an anxiety disorder and often results in panic attack, and can be the result of many situations or stimuli, including elevators crowded to capacity, windowless rooms, and even tight-necked clothing. The onset of claustrophobia has been attributed to many factors, including a reduction in the size of the amygdala, classical conditioning, or a genetic predisposition to fear small spaces.


Claustrophobia is usually described as a fear of enclosed places. A more accurate description might be 'a fear of not having an easy escape route' because for anyone who experiences this phobia this is the predominating feature - you feel a need to be able to get out or get home, quickly.

I had this phobia ever since I was a child, I am so afraid of going inside the elevator alone, and up to now, I am still,   I remember the first time I went to PBCom Tower in Makati and applied in one of the offices there, I am afraid to get inside the elevator alone, I still have to wait for somebody to take that elevator before I will get in, I remember I would pretend that I am sending a text message to somebody so that no one would notice the I am not taking that elevator because I am alone.

I am also afraid of any close door room or windowless, as I enter a building, the first thing I notice or look for is the exit door, without that in my sight, I am already terrified.

I tell you how it’s like to have this kind of phobia, every time I am in this situation, it seems like that I can’t breathe,   I can’t move, I can’t think, I am nervous, worried, tense, I feel uneasy, I couldn’t calm down.

If I am not mistaken, I got this phobia when I was still a child, I was playing hide and seek with my two brothers in our backyard, when a group of children went to our gate and watched us playing, there is nothing wrong with it, we always welcome them to join us, but that day, there’s these two boy who tease us, telling us “hoy bata, suntukan tayo” I got mad and immediately closed the gate, then after that I heard somebody cried, so I open the gate again and I saw that little girl crying while holding her thumb, it’s bleeding, I heard someone said “hala ka… lagot… naipit ang kamay niya….” Natanggalan ng kuko, so that’s it, I was frighten, of course I would, because I was still a child, I was about 7-8 years old then, to make the story even more complicated, the father of that little girl is the craziest guy in our neighborhood, he was always drunk every night, and every time he is drunk he always had troubles, madalas nakikipag away siya, at kapag nakikipag away na, expect mo na kukuha na yan ng itak at makikipag tagaan sa kainuman, hindi ko na alam kung ilan na ang nakasagupa niya at ilang beses na siyang nakulong,  so ayun, kapag nakainom na siya at nagwawala na, magaaway narin sila ng asawa niya, at madalas, sinasabi ng asawa niya na “tumigil kana sa pagwawala dyan, kahit yung anak mo, muntik ng maputol ang kamay dahil inipt ng gate at umuwi ng umiiyak, wala karing ginawa” so ayun na naman ulit, magaaway na naman sila ng asawa niya, hindi lang kasi siya makalapit sa akin noon, kasi takot sila sa Papa ko at sa mga uncle ko, and as a child, kapag nagwawala na ang hinayupak na yun, takot ako parati, I want to escape, I remember, I will stay in our school until 6pm, I will wait for my father to be home, because I am afraid, I remember I couldn’t sleep well at night because I can hear his voice shouting outside and looking for someone who would fight him, and somebody would tell him to go to our house and look for me, imagine I was only 7-8 years old that time.
Every time my father left for work, I always had this planned of escaping, I am afraid that he might do something wrong to me when my father is out, eeeiiiiii!!! Good thing my lola is always there for me, and almost all of my uncles are always around, they never left 
me alone in the house.

But it was just my conclusion, I really don’t know how I got this phobia, basta takot lang talaga ako sa mga sarado at masisikip na lugar, kahit gaano pa ito kaganda, basta alam kong nakakulong ako… sigurado.. kinakabahan na ako.

I don’t know what to do with this… but somehow… through research I manage to resolve my problem… when I was still in Manila, with full courage in my heart, I tried to take the elevator alone, yeah!!!! GOD ALLAH knows how frighten I am, pero… I manage to survive… that time.. akala ko mamamatay na ako sa takot… but when I get out alive… yeahhhhh…. Sinubukan ko ulit..

Facing your fear is not easy… but the only way to survive in this so called life is to fight, kaya you have to fight and conquer your feel.


Yeah… pero kahit ano pa man yan… takot parin ako.. until now… ehehehehe…

Yun lang…



D”N

9 comments:

  1. okay na sana eh. akala ko na conquer mo na. Takot pa din pala.. ahh takot! ahh takot!.. hehe joke lang. sa totoo lang hindi ka naman nag-iisa dyan madami din kayong ganyan. halos lahat yata ng tao meron nyan. I think.

    Ako ewan kung anong phobia ko. takot lang ako sa centipede (alupihan). Eh madami naman takot dun. pero ako takot even sa laruan lang na alupihan. I remember nung high school may naglagay nun sa loob ng blouse ko sa likod. Naku halos mahimatay ako sa kakaiyak. muntik ko na alisin blouse ko. hehe.. ewan ko nga kung babae o lalaki ang dumukot pero wala ako pakialam basta kailangan maalis yun. pag totoo naman nakita ko which is rare thanks God. Tatakbo na ako palayo. parang kakainin kasi ako. hehe..

    ayun lang nakisaw-saw lang sa post mo. Take care my friend!Kaya mo yan!

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  2. ano kaya nkinakatakutan ko.. hehehe

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  3. ahahah... wala ako masabi mayen... talagang takot prin ako... ehehehhe....

    @Kiko: matakot ka kay Joker.. ehehhehe

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  4. Conquer your fear pala ah, sabihin ko sa Phil Arilines tanggalin ang mga bintana at lagyan ng cover lahat ng entry at exit point para pagdating mo pa lang dito balik ka agad ng Saudi. Hehe.

    Ang hirap ng may Phobia no? Ako 2 lang naman, una yung sa worms. Sa sobrang takot ko sa bulate, nilalagnat ako, at take note kakaripas ako ng takbo kapag nakakita ako. Nanlalambot ako pag nakakakita ako. One time pa nga muntik na ako masagasaan ng jeep kakaiwas ko sa bulate.

    Wala lang na-share ko lang. hehe! Yung isa sa post ko na.

    Salamat nga pala sa ubod ng habang 2 comment mo sa blog ko na para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig at poooooop, okay na ko. Ganun kadali!

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  5. bulate? anak ng tekwa naman ohhh.. ano naman ang nakakatakot sa bulate at kandarapa kana sa pagtakbo... eheheheh.... alam mo bang bago pa sila makalakad ng isang metro ay mahigit isang kilometro na ang na takbo... ehehehe... anyway... huwag naman.. huwag mo naman akong pahirapan sa pagsakay ng airplane... pero sa totoo lang... natatakot din ako sa airplane.. kasi wala karing takas eh.. sarado kasi.. basta sarado at alam kong hindi ko pwede buksan.. yun na yun,,, takot na ako... kahit masikip na daanan...

    sige abangan ko ang ikalawa mong phobia... ehehehe.. mahirapp din ang may phobia...

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  6. OH MY GOD!! kinabahan ako sa picture.. my phobia ako sa heights at sa maliliit na pusa at daga.. ouch!

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  7. naaalala ko may klasmeyt din ako na super kapag crowded naman ayun parang maiiyak na siya.. pero naisip ko dito paano mo naaquire yun..yung ganyang phobia.. tapos naisip ko.. yung Space Shuttle sa Enchanted Kingdom... kase kahit paulit-ulitin ko yun hindi nawawala takot ko.. kada nakapila ako nafifeel ko yung takot hahaha.. pero love ko pa rin.

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  8. ako ano ba ang fear ko.wait.fear of height yong looking down from top of the building para akong hinihila pababa. at pasaway magpatakb ng sasakyan.

    Pero diko naman siya masayadong pnapansin. kaya parang wala lang.

    sana maovercome muna ang fear mo na yan kasi parang ang hirap nito.

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  9. ako sa ahas ako takot at sa mumu... though d p tlga ako nakakakita ng mumu. At recently lang nagkaphobia ako samga magnanakaw! anak ng epic!

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